Current mood:	angry
Current music:	The Pillows-Carnival

::::Sex, Drugs, and all those patches on our hearts::::
When did sex become so cheap? When did sleeping with someone matter less then a kiss on a rainy day under a large tree in a park? When did sex start meaning so little to everyone? When did people start selling they're sextuality and they're body in hopes of feeling loved for just a moment in a world were no one really cares about them? When did guys cut romance out of the picture and only use it when just asking for sex no longer worked? Yes thats right when did acctualy caring about a girl become a cheap lie to get into her pants? Even sadder is the girl often knows the act the boi puts on but she strings him along and both parties get what they want, just a moment were they feel signifigant and can't feel the pain anymore. It makes me so sad that sex takes the back seat these days and is totaly whored around. It's not even really meaningfull anymore. It's just...there. There was a time were a kiss under a tree in a park was....amazing...but then taking it further and sharing something with that person you love...something that you'd share with no one else on the entire planet was straight up sacred and THAT made it amazing. Thats what made it so great and thats what it was ment for. Something you could share with someone else to show them how much you loved them...cause you'd share it with no one else. NO ONE ELSE! Now I feel more like holding a girls hand and kissing her under that tree in the park as the rain hits the leafs then I do about taking her to a room and sharing that with her. It's like....it's not even that big anymore. It's like that kiss would make time stand still were as sex I could just forget a month later. It's hard to stomach. Thats someone could date a person and decided they wern't good enough for marrige...for something permant...but they were good enough to throw sex around with. Sorry to be a little blunt but sex feels a lot better then a kiss...but lately a kiss has so much more meaning and is so much more sacred. I'm not just talking about randomly making out with someone at a party. I'm talking about kissing someone you care about with your hands around them and then cuddling on a bench on the front porch. We live in a culture with so much pain. And to numb that we give our self to temporary lovers untill they don't numb the pain any longer. Once they themselfs become "real" and happen to no longer take away pain...or in fact even cause it at one point we just drop them like a rock. What ever happend to loving someone so much you made a serious comitment to them and you stuck with that?